@ Self; you never actually liked him. You just liked the fantasy of him. A curated version of him. In reality, he is no where close to the idealized version of him you have in your head. He is shallow, not genuine, insecure and cocky. All the traits you admired about him, curate in yourself. Learn electric guitar, work hard af at school, go to the gym consistency and get fit af, go on raw & unabridged adventures and be more lowkey and mysterious about things. Learn alot and become knowledgeable. Become versed in coding. The world is your oyster. Don’t let some germ ruin it for you. Especially not some stupid lanky fuck like him. Don’t romanticize someone’s potential.